40-Day Fast
Okay, I'm going to try an experiment. I've come to the realization over the past few weeks that I have nothing to say. (Now, watch me talk about that forever and totally contradict myself). Anyway, I've been teaching my class mediocre lessons. I've been blogging substandard posts. And I've been pretending to brainstorm for whatever writing projects enter my mind at the moment. But, it's all been for naught. The truth is, my spiritual gas tank is on Empty.
I've been around the block enough times to know that I can't keep serving without filling myself up, (or letting God fill me up, to be more accurate), so that's what I'm going to do for awhile. My coteacher is teaching the class for the next six weeks, so I have a break there for awhile. So it seems now is the perfect time to go on a "fast."
A fast should be something you give up in order to spend more time with God. For me, food just doesn't do it for me. So, don't worry. I will continue to eat over the next 40 days. For me, it's going to have to be writing. This may seem weird since writing, for me, is a way of serving God. But, lately I've been trying to pour out more than I'm pouring in, so the well is drying up. I need to read the Bible for awhile without always asking myself, "What verses would go with that lesson/book/idea/etc.?" I need to read without any ulterior motives. Who knows? God may be trying to tell me something but I keep putting my own ideas in the way. Or maybe not. Maybe He just wants me to shut up for awhile.
And, I'm perfectly okay with that.
So, since blogging is writing, I'm officially signing off until after Thanksgiving. No pictures. No updates. No clever anecdotes. Just a 40-day silence to see what God is saying instead of what I am saying for a change.
During that time, I'm sure Gideon will start walking like crazy. (He's already so close - taking eight or so steps at a time and getting braver every day). I'll have another birthday. We'll take more pictures. We'll celebrate Thanksgiving. And, who knows what other milestones will pass us by. But, for now at least, I'll keep my commentaries to myself. Pray for me. - Em
I've been around the block enough times to know that I can't keep serving without filling myself up, (or letting God fill me up, to be more accurate), so that's what I'm going to do for awhile. My coteacher is teaching the class for the next six weeks, so I have a break there for awhile. So it seems now is the perfect time to go on a "fast."
A fast should be something you give up in order to spend more time with God. For me, food just doesn't do it for me. So, don't worry. I will continue to eat over the next 40 days. For me, it's going to have to be writing. This may seem weird since writing, for me, is a way of serving God. But, lately I've been trying to pour out more than I'm pouring in, so the well is drying up. I need to read the Bible for awhile without always asking myself, "What verses would go with that lesson/book/idea/etc.?" I need to read without any ulterior motives. Who knows? God may be trying to tell me something but I keep putting my own ideas in the way. Or maybe not. Maybe He just wants me to shut up for awhile.
And, I'm perfectly okay with that.
So, since blogging is writing, I'm officially signing off until after Thanksgiving. No pictures. No updates. No clever anecdotes. Just a 40-day silence to see what God is saying instead of what I am saying for a change.
During that time, I'm sure Gideon will start walking like crazy. (He's already so close - taking eight or so steps at a time and getting braver every day). I'll have another birthday. We'll take more pictures. We'll celebrate Thanksgiving. And, who knows what other milestones will pass us by. But, for now at least, I'll keep my commentaries to myself. Pray for me. - Em
posted by Emily Ryan at
3:42 PM
1 Comments:
Ummm...you could post pictures without writing right? :-) Just kidding, I'm just being selfish because I don't want to miss 40 days with Gideon. I completely understand your need to sign off and will be praying for you!!!
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